Your body concaves upon itself – crushing you as your sight narrows and thoughts spiral. Perhaps you scream or cry silently, embarrassed about the inopportune time to break down. Maybe you stare at the wall, zoning out for a minute at a time. Your world suddenly appears smaller.
Then, a series of questions begin to plague your thoughts:
Why can't I get my emotions under control?
I should be happy right now, but why does happiness seem ungraspable?
Am I being judged for reacting this way?
Why do I feel numb towards my baby and family?
Why do I feel disconnected from myself?
You might feel alone in the moment, but I can confidently say that you are not.
You are not alone. Not even close!
Numerous women suffer this exact way during the postpartum phase, some during the pregnancy itself. Unfortunately, the stigma surrounding postpartum depression tends to cause women to wear a fake smile. This is supposed to be one of the happiest times of their lives, right? Therefore, they tend to struggle in silence, and some may not discuss their concerns with their own doctor or family.
